I bled tonight; I bled and bled and bled for an hour,
I didn’t faint and falter,
I just accepted the fact,
My fear is not for me but for my family

Is the struggle worthwhile?
We are born, live and die
Does it matter if I die tonight or in ten years time?
Sometimes I think being given a terminal prognosis would be freeing
My fear is not for me by for my family

Tomorrow the struggle will still be present
I will get up, go out and make the best of the day
But before then is sleep
Will it matter if I don’t wake up?
My fear is not for me but for my family


About Pete

South Londoner struggling with life, art and photography.
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2 Responses to Struggle

  1. rhiannon evans says:

    To bleed at all is frightening and shows our vulnerability and humanness.
    When you regain your strength you will be able to reflect on this.
    Many of us who follow your blog may not comment frequently but we are still present.
    May you be well.

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  2. Carol Street says:

    Wishing you well Pete and hope that tomorrow brings with it a ray of warmth, light and healing. Chin up and be strong, for you and also for your family. I’ve followed your blog for a few months now and feel that you are an inspiration to many.

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