I’m still bleeding a great deal and last night was no different and so can’t wait to see the specialist this Thursday. The issue preoccupies me and so with that in mind I decided to create this physical image. Actually I am sure if I did decide anything – I just began this activity and somehow found myself here. (Rather like the way Jackson Pollock created some of his abstract expressions pieces, or is that being too pretentious).
It’s created with paint and materials I use to help manage aspects of paralysis. I had called it suppression because that’s the feeling I had when I began making it – that is being calm and nice to all around me when inside I am raging. However now I have entitled it exorcism because the process has changed my mood for the better.
These are in no particular order:
- I found the process therapeutic. By the end the process I was in a different place and mood than when I begun the work. Doing this type of work immerses me in thoughts of colour, shape and form and pushes others thoughts out.
- The image lacks any craft. It has form and texture but there was little in terms of craft skills to create it.
- The physical artifact does not exist now. Only the digital image remains and so if the electricity went of it would not exist except in my, and the computer’s memories.